dear flower, it's 5.24am now and im not sleep yet.
how can i sleep when im typing, it's ridiculous...
yesterday was a tough day for me and Z. we had a fight.
is there any cure for me to forget the passed??
I can't remember everything but i can remember one thing which is H.I.M!!
WHEN TALKING ABOUT HIM...
- he's my boyfriend
- he's cute
- he's funny
- he's annoying
- he's clever (not all the time)
I'm not satisfied, what else that I want?? I don't know...
Girl like me is complicated..
Everything that happened is a drama..that's what life supposed to be. it has conflict and tragedy so don't blame me..
Actually what I wanted to write is I am happy being you my love.
I always wanted you to be right next to me.
Every second I want to see you right here.
Whenever I need you, you're there.
But it's impossible because we're not married.
We're just in a relationship.
Anything can happen and I'm afraid I can't face it alone.
Falling in love with you for the third time is a chance for me to prove my love that has gone wrong before. I'm thankful to you by giving me this chance. But I never do good things to you. I beat you, I hurt you badly and now I realize, I am the one who creating this mess. I was wrong to you. I shouldn't think bad about you. You've prove your love to me by loving me and take good care of me. I'm ego and jealous too much for the things that you never do.
I'm afraid all this mess will fed you up and you'll leave me.
I'm sorry for all the wrongs that I've done.
I'll try my best to be positive and I'll never let you down baby.
I'll be a better girl that you ever had.
This is my promise.
What I need is only time and your attention.
I want you to look at me like the first time you fell in love with me.
That's all I missed
REMEMBER THIS
Forget all the shit that I said to you.
I love you so much baby, EVERY SECOND IN MY LIFE.
I will never ever leave you.
xoxo